| Location | Southend |
| Age | 0 |
| Date of Birth | 8/2002 |
| Date of Death | 8/2002 |
| Visitors | 2,029 since 27/05/2008 |
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Hollie
born asleep August 15th 2002
39 Weeks
Sister to Ben, Sam and Faye
A letter to Hollie,
Darling baby Hollie, i will never forget August 13th 2002 the day you went to be with the angels and our lord in heaven. I woke up to your usual good morning kick and spent the day pottering about. At lunchtime i thought a bit of my waters had gone and rang the hospital for advice. They said as i was 39 weeks come in and they would check and probably induce me. I left your brothers Ben and Sam who were so excited as the next time they would see me i would be bringing home their new baby sister. We excitedly left for the hospital and was taken straight to the delivery suite and hooked up to a monitor.....
The nurse couldnt find your heartbeat but told me not to worry she would get a doctor to do a scan. My heart sank, your beating heart was always so easy to find and i suddenly realised that perhaps you hadnt moved for a while, i started to prod and poke my tummy as i always did when i wanted to play with you, and you would usually respond with a foot or hand pushing back. But this time you were so still and quiet and you didnt want to play. The doctor came back with the scanner and as soon as your picture came up on the screen i could see you had gone.
The next few minutes passed in a complete blur of disbelief, horror, scilence, no you cant have gone they have got it wrong, i just wanted them to deliver you to prove that you were still with us. But no matter what i said or thought, in my heart i knew that my long awaited little angel had gone to sleep.
You were a stubborn little sucker, you didnt want to leave me and over the next few days i was induced over and over again. Then finally on August 15th at 3.30 you came into the world asleep weighing 7pd 4ozs. You were so beautiful, black curly hair, all your fingers and toes, you were perfect, just asleep.
I cuddled you and felt a pain and longing that only a mother could have for her newborn child, i never wanted to let you go and if only you could have opened your eyes, just for one second and seen how proud i was of you my angel, but you just laid there asleep in my arms.
Hollie you would have been six this year and it has taken me all this time to be able to share your memory and my thoughts with others, they say that time is a healer, but my heart will never be complete a part of it will always be missing until i hold you in my arms again. Sleep tight my darling i love and miss you every day.
All my love always mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxx
A post mortem showed that Hollies cord had wrapped round her neck and got pinched she would have died within seconds. I went on to have another beautiful little girl who will be five this year. I didnt have a grave for Hollie she was cremated and her ashes are in the river where i lived, i did this in memory of her and so that i can visit her.
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Happy easter sweet little angel xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hi sweet heart
Hello sweet angel , thinking of you at this time of year. and always. . . send a big kiss and hug to your mummy. . happy christmas sweet heart. . XXXXXXXXXX
Missing You, Child, at Christmas
Everybody's rushing round
Full of festive cheer
But I'm finding all I want to do
At Christmas, is come here.
To talk to you a little while
And light a candle or two
I can't buy you a present
So what else can I do?
Remember child, I love you
I'm still hurting with this pain
I don't think it will ever stop
Until I'm with you once again.
Always in my thoughts
Good morning little one. Just to let you know that i havent forgotten you. . Hope you are playing with my son mathew , and all the other angel children. . All my love to you all ways . . Sleep tight little angel. . xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Life Within & A Place in our Hearts
'Life Within'
To have known life within
Is to have known joy
And the freshness of beginnings:
To have life snatched away
Leaves me with hands outstretched,
My arms open wide,
Feeling emptiness and space,
Rather than the weight of my child,
With newborn warmth and silken hair.
My body, so full of kicks and squirms one day,
Is barren and lifeless the next
Stripped of its child,
That I never knew. Yet I did know and love.
'A place in our Hearts'
There is a place in our hearts meant for you alone
Part of our lives only you can own.
The tears in our eyes we can wipe away,
But the love in our hearts will always stay.
May the winds of love blow softly
and whisper for you to hear
how much we will always love you.
To us you were so dear.
sorry
Hi karena , I havent been on for a while , went on holliday . Then couldnt get the hang of this new site .. I like the old one better . . Any way i hope you are ok love. . You are always in my thoughts and prayers. . All my love to you and your family . . x x x x All my love to your special little ANGEL. . SLEEP TIGHT LITTLE ONE.XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXxxxxxxxx
Thank you for your kind words , I have a daughter Amanda who is now 16 and the light of my life . I miss Darren so much but believe he was too good for this world , just like your beautifull baby daughter and so many like them .
Love Isla xx
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